Insecure

Yup, that's me. From insecure about my looks to my talents, I tend to be insecure.
At the moment, I'm currently on the heavy side for me. Which sucks, but is ok. Normally I'd just start exercising, stop eating so much junk, and things would be ok.
But I'm going to visit my family in 9 days ;P And I'm just so nervous about comments I might recieve from them.
Especially my father. I know he loves me, I know he means well... but when I just know (from experience) that he'll ask me "what happened, you were doing so well". And that hurts. And makes me sad.
So i've been nervous. And in that terrible cycle that is me, I eat when I'm nervous. I'm trying to be good, but in the process of worrying, I'm making matters worse rather than better *sigh*
Anyway, not really trying to be a downer, but I'm nervous.
Also, I'll be sunbathing in a bikini, and don't want to scare anyone, lol.
other things in life are ok. Work is picking up, so my workload is fairly large. Ali takes good care of me, even though I still sometimes have a hard time with life in another country. I'm really looking forward to seeing my family, and looking forward to new things when I come back from visiting them.
Life is good, keep smiling.