The Fragile

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3/29/2013 10:34:43 PM

Goals

Current weight: 262.8 lbs
Goal Weight: 170 lbs

That means I want to lose over 90 lbs. Man, that sucks.

Actual measurements:
Bust: 44"
Waist: 37.5"
Hips: 49"

Goal Measurements:
Bust 37.5"
Waist 29.5"
Hips 41"

The goal measurements are what would get me down to a US size 12/ NZ size 14. I think the goal weight is less than that, but I know I looked good at a US size 14, so 12 would be my ideal I think.

Engaged! And other stories...

So I let this blog pretty much die, but here's an update anyway!
Ali took me out to a gorgeous beach about a month ago, and asked if I would marry him! It was gorgeous and romantic and all I could have dreamed of in a proposal. My heart thumps just thinking back to it! :)
Anyway, we'll be getting married in the USA in about....6 weeks, eek! It seems very unreal. My mom is planning lots of the wedding, but I've sorted the bridesmaids and flowergirl dresses, and all the bouquets. My grandma is being a darling and buying me fresh flowers for all the tables. :)
I have a kitty on me at the moment, who is so very big and so very loving. Our old flatmates cat was recently hit by a car, so I think I'm holding our boy a little bit closer lately, hoping he'll be careful. Unfortunately you can't control a kitty being outside. Luckily we live on a nice quiet little street, so less chance of somone racing down, but we get a few.
Oh, and I've been working at Farmers for a few months now, and I'm really enjoying it for the most part. They like me, think that I'm efficient and smart, and are looking to give me more training.
I've been working fulltime for the past few days though, and I'm exhausted! Ok, so it's been 6 days straight when I'm not used to it, but *yawn*....no fun.
I've got some really great friends here in Chch now, and it's good to have people over, and be able to ring someone up (or text!) and find that they'll swing by to hang out, or meet somewhere. It's been a long time since I've had friends like that.
Anyway, I've got invitations for my bridal shower and invitations for my engagement party to print out, so I'd best get to it. :) Meh, parties are a pain to plan!
Stephanie Marie

What's new in Stephanie Land

So, let's start at the beginning.
I'm lacking a job. Lost it just before Christmas.
My parents are talking about getting back together. In fact, dad moved back in.
My grandpa is dying, but lived through his cancer surgery.
My dad just turned 50
I just got another year renewal of my work permit
Ali loves me
my kitten is getting so big
I'm going to Melbourne Australia in a few weeks.
People are trying to buy the company I used to work for, and would want me to come work for them.
I miss my friends
I found some old and some new friends on myspace.com
....good and bad. That's life! I'm still happy throughout!
Steph

Insecure

Yup, that's me. From insecure about my looks to my talents, I tend to be insecure.
At the moment, I'm currently on the heavy side for me. Which sucks, but is ok. Normally I'd just start exercising, stop eating so much junk, and things would be ok.
But I'm going to visit my family in 9 days ;P And I'm just so nervous about comments I might recieve from them.
Especially my father. I know he loves me, I know he means well... but when I just know (from experience) that he'll ask me "what happened, you were doing so well". And that hurts. And makes me sad.
So i've been nervous. And in that terrible cycle that is me, I eat when I'm nervous. I'm trying to be good, but in the process of worrying, I'm making matters worse rather than better *sigh*
Anyway, not really trying to be a downer, but I'm nervous.
Also, I'll be sunbathing in a bikini, and don't want to scare anyone, lol.
other things in life are ok. Work is picking up, so my workload is fairly large. Ali takes good care of me, even though I still sometimes have a hard time with life in another country. I'm really looking forward to seeing my family, and looking forward to new things when I come back from visiting them.
Life is good, keep smiling.

Weekend in Nelson

The last week went by so fast! One second I was in Dunedin and the next I was in Nelson!
Well, there was some memory of a week from hell (big big sale at low low prices) :P, but all a memory now.
Nelson was nice. We drove up on friday night, and Matthew joined us. It was a looong drive, especially as it was raining hard for much of the drive. But I did enjoy it :)
On Saturday we spent some time at Nelson airport looking at Air New Zealand's new plane, the Dash 8 (q 300 Bombadier or something like that, lol. Ask Ali)
It was cold, but we had fun. Saw Tim there as well, and we were a bit silly. It actually reminded me of the time of thing my dad used to drag us to, so it was nice.
Then we went and met Sue (Ali's mum) at the airport, home from a 5 week holiday in the UK and Europe. On a side note, I fell down a couple stairs and broke one of my fave pairs of shoes, but such is life, I'm not heartbroken.
Anyway, she was really surprised to see us, and I think she was happy to see her eldest. She was non stop chatty for that afternoon, and she had lots of fun stories to tell about her travels. She also brought presents for her kids, and I was shocked to find she had gotten me a few things. Very sweet of her, I'll have to bring her back something from the US :)
That night Sue and Gordon took us out for dinner at the local place, I had been there once before when I had first met them. Remembering back, it's amazing how much more comfortable I am with them now.
Also, yummmy enchiladas. I still prefer authentic enchiladas, but those Kiwi-ized ones are pretty tasty.
Sunday we pretty much got up and left. Had a nice breakfast with them, and I have a new cereal I like, but away as soon as we could. Picked up Matthew from his parent's house, and then we had a fair ride back. Unfortunately I had a bit of carsickness going, so I was worrying Ali (and myself!) Thinking I would be sick in the car. I managed though, and I really enjoyed the last half of the drive, there were some gorgeous sceneries, which I hope I remember to post some pictures of up here!
Home again, to some KFC for dinner (yes, still addicted to their fries and potatoes and gravy) and an early night.
Tues already, and I'm looking forward to my birthday and payday on thurs, and then YAY a weekend at home. Once sunday hits it's 2 weeks until our USA holiday, :D
Oops, back to work now
Stephanie